My provider

Someone offered me
a stable job in management
with a company vehicle
and a regular paycheck
with a salary
a company vehicle
with less work
than I do right now
and a company vehicle.
I might have already mentioned that.

For a fleeting moment
I considered the possibilities.
All of the things
that I am struggling
to become better at
would be less of a problem
as I would no longer be the boss.
Less worry
More money
More stability

I told her I would pray about it.

I was pretty sure
I already knew
the answer I would get
in prayer
when I mentioned it to a friend
who said to me
"Is this business a business,
or a ministry?"
Yep.
There is my answer.

As great as it sounds
to have for myself
a steady paycheck
a stability I've never had
a company car,
I know Who
my provider is
and His plans
for me require
a little more trust in Him
and a little less "knowing"
the check will be
in the bank every Friday.

I have a long way to go,
I know that.
But God is good
and His plans for me
to love and help and serve
His people
are so much better
than I can imagine.

(Which is really fantastic because my dreams
at this point are pretty awesome.)
And I know
beyond all doubt
that He will provide
so that I can do these things
for Him.

"Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/God,-The-Provider#sthash.BHpNQNGn.dpuf

 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Matthew 6:26

The Lord is trustworthy in all he promises and faithful in all he does. The Lord upholds all who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down.The eyes of all look to you, and you give them their food at the proper time.You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing. Psalm 145:13-16

"Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/God,-The-Provider#sthash.BHpNQNGn.dpuf

"Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/God,-The-Provider#sthash.BHpNQNGn.dpuf