Impactful Books

As I said, I have read several books over the last year or so that have had a significant impact on me in one way or another. Some of them were written for that purpose, but several are just people sharing their own stories. 

Here are a few of the most impactful, in no particular order.

• Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents - Lindsay C. Gibson
  
  
• The biggest lesson for me in this one wasn't in the understanding and forgiving of my parents for doing the best they could. It was seeing myself in the pages of this book and talking to my kids and knowing that they already understood I did the best I could and they have forgiven traumas and have a lot of really good memories from childhood. I didn't ruin them.
  

• 9 Things You Simply Must Do to Succeed in Love and Life - Henry Cloud
  
  
• My two favorite lessons from this book were "Play the Movie" and "Don't Play Fair." You'll have to read the book to find out what those mean. It's likely one I'll listen to again in the coming months. As someone grows stronger and more mentally healthy, two things happen to lessons like the ones in this book. 1. You read it and think, "I've got that one down!" and can celebrate a success. Or 2. The lessons take on different and/or deeper meanings than you previously understood. Either way, it will be worth the re-read.
   

• Friends, Lovers, and the Big Terrible Thing - Matthew Perry
  
  
• This book would be on the list even if he hadn't passed away last week.  As a long-time fan of Matthew Perry, I was shocked to learn how deep his battle with addiction was. This is one of a couple on this list where I don't remember all the details specifically, but I know this book touched me deeply.
   

• Spare - Prince Harry
   
  
• This was the first time I saw someone publicly discuss how mushrooms had made an impact on their emotional health. He credits them with making a huge impact on his PTSD. It also made me think more critically about what I see in the media when it comes to celebrities. He talked about how things were twisted and leaked to the press about one family member or another in order to draw attention away from something they didn't want talked about.
   

• I'm Glad My Mom Died - Jeanette McCurdy 
  
  
• I love Jeanette and how raw and honest she is with her fans & readers. Her vulnerability really spoke to me. I don't remember specific "lessons" per se, but I definitely wanted to include it here in this list.
   

• Internal Family Systems Therapy - Richard C Schwartz
  
  
• One therapist whose Bio noted she was trained in IFS Therapy looked at me and said, "That's a textbook. It wasn't meant for you to read. It is for counselors." I asked her if she read it. She said no. I then asked her how much she studied on IFS in school and she pulled out her own textbook and told me there were "at least 10 pages on it."
  
  I learned more from this book than from any of the 6 therapists I talked to between January and July this year.
  

• How to Keep House While Drowning - KC Davis
  
  
• When KC came across my TikTok feed, I appreciated her comments to people about how they shouldn't be judging people for how they clean or don't clean and what they can or can not accomplish. Then I saw she wrote a book and I LOVED it. She helps people change perspective on what housework and equal shares of the work should look like. She also has a lot of tips for neuro-divergent people that can help with cleaning... or life in general.
  I was at one of my lowest points when I found this book and she reminded me to be nice to current self while also being kind to my future self. She also reminded me of some of the lessons I've taught clients over the years, that I had forgotten to apply to myself.
  

• From the Streets to the Suites - Snoop Dog (Only available on Audible.)
  
  
• I love how he talks about having choices in life and that some of those choices are just dependent on how you live and the words that come out of your mouth. He talks about how he feels he spoke situations into existence, good and bad, just by rapping about them. He also talks about seeing the record label that discovered him headed some dark places and buying it and turning it around for good.
  

• Love and Respect - Dr Emerson Eggerichs
  
  
• I heard about this book years ago, but when Mike and I were struggling earlier this year, I couldn't quite recall the title. To be honest, I didn't think he'd read it with me so I didn't try too hard to remember. When we started counseling at the beginning of October, it's one of the first things our counselor told us we were going to do... read this book. It's definitely been impactful.
  

One important thing to remember here is that different books impact people in different ways. Two people can see the same story and have completely different feelings about it. 

A book can't change you on it's own. You have to be open to that change. I definitely believe the Holy Spirit plays a part in that as well... bringing what I need to read to my attention at a time when my spirit is ready to hear it.

A New Journey...

I made this post on Facebook last Wednesday:

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In February '22 when we bought the office building, Mike was unhappy in his job... But he had been there a long time and there were good reasons to stay.

I told a lot of people that my goal was to grow the businesses enough to work Mike out of his job. I wanted him to be able to find something he loves doing... whether that's music or something else. I even told him, "Give me two years."

Earlier this year, Pekin Insurance restructured and Mike's position changed a bit and he started liking his job again.

I was a little disappointed because I wanted him to do what he loved... but it was stability.

Even though we were sure his job was safe for a number of reasons, including his high performance numbers and the fact that he'd been there over 15 years, Mike was let go yesterday, along with many other people.

It took a day to sink in, but the timing didn't escape me... with the severance package he was offered, it will carry us through until mid-February, 2 years exactly since I made that "Give me two years." statement.

We're hanging out this morning, running an errand for Harmonize Peoria and talking... and it's so encouraging that now that it has sunk in, we're both more excited than anything.

We don't know what God's plan is, be we are both pretty sure it's going to be cool...

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It's been five days since he got the call and life is really good right now. It almost seems like a weight has been lifted off of him. 

There's more to share here. This part of the story isn't about being in a good place and getting this news and then still being in a good place. But I need to keep writing. A little every day. 

So I'll share some more tomorrow...

Seasons

There are a lot of blog drafts sitting in my blog account here. Most of them are about my struggle with depression over the last year. Many are just a few words long. I wish I could have made myself write them. I just wasn't in the right place. When I'm sad, words are extremely hard. 

The hysterectomy of my tumor-riddled uterus (benign) followed by a rough recovery, betrayal by two people I thought were friends (one who actively tried to turn others against me) and one other who I thought was a great employee, as well as a nationwide shortage of my ADHD medication, and regular seasonal blues all ganged up on me at once.

With barely enough strength and interest to keep my businesses afloat, I sat in our recliner day after day for months... In a few months time, I watched all 15 seasons of ER - 335 hours. I watched all of The West Wing - 154 hours. I watched countless other shows and movies... because I didn't have the emotional strength to get out of my chair.   

While I absolutely believe counseling can be useful in many situations, counseling alone didn't help me here. I learned more from delving into books on counseling and working on myself while drawing from what I already knew, than from the actual counselors I saw... and I saw several.

Eventually I read about a supplement that was supposed to help. I started it in April and have been continuing my own positive mental health journey since then... I never would have expected a combination of nootropics and psilocybin to pull me out, but it did and I am so thankful for the information I came across about microdosing and depression. 

I'm writing today for a couple of reasons... 

First, I miss writing. I want to try to keep it up. I know it's an important part of who I am and what I am supposed to do with my life. I love encouraging people through writing.

There have been many 'seasons' for me in the last four years. I am so proud of many of the journeys I've been through. Each one brought change for me, some tiny course corrections and other big leaps of faith and belief. I really wish I had written through them.

That brings me to the second reason I am writing. I believe we're on the verge of another season, another adventure in faith and I want to be able to look back someday and see it and say, "Look what God did for us." because he always does take care of us. Season after season, promise after promise.