I liked him. A lot. Our meeting seemed Divinely inspired and we quickly became good friends. It didn't take long for things to turn somewhat serious, for me at least. The problem was, we couldn't fully walk with God and each other at the same time. We tried, but we encouraged the worst habits in each other. We also tried asking God to show us if we should be dating or not, but we didn't really wait for His answer and we forged ahead anyway.
I ignored red flags and warning signs that it wasn't right. I'm sure he did too.
Over the last few days, as God and I have worked on some things, I knew I would have to put an end to anything beyond friendship, even though nothing official had ever been proposed. We needed a new, clear, boundary. Honestly, I don't think it phased him... which is why I say it turned serious "for me at least." And while that stung a bit, I'm proud of myself for having enough self respect to step back and mean it.
I'll admit I hesitated. I asked God, "What if he is upset when I tell him?"
That's when I heard clearly, "He is not going to fight for you."
Ouch. Not a surprise though.
Someone will. Someday.
He is not that someone.
Today is not that day.
Don't get me wrong. He's not a bad guy, just not the right one.
God has a man who is a better match for me out there.
Someone with good communication skills and clear boundaries.
Lord knows we won't last a month without them...
"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."